I want you to hit me as hard as you can.

There is a cost for everything that we do, a consequence for every single decision. Even the smallest looking of decisions can lead to major changes. Something as small as a smile can lead to something much bigger, or cause problems for something that is already there. The problem comes in when we worry about every single one of our decisions. When we spend more time worrying about the effect of our decisions instead of deciding on something. We miss opportunities, things pass us by. There are consequences and costs for not making decisions, and they tend to be worse than those for making the wrong decision. Fortune does not favor those that do nothing, that sit on their hands. This is a hard lesson to learn, as I have only learned it slowly and painfully. I now have to actually decide to trust people, as in the past I trusted too soon and without thought. Hurt too often and on too regular a basis, my trust is not doled out as easily. Which means I come across all understanding and nice, and in fact I am just waiting for my inner voice to be proven right. A self-fulfilling prophecy, I understand, but I tend to be right. I tend to right about everything, but especially about these things.

Funny enough, the person I seem to trust the least is myself.